I've started buying myself flowers once a week.
P.S. Did you know you get The Great Vibes New Year Guide when you sign up for The Newsletter?
One week to go until I'm reading over books filled with economic based calculus and texts about Hinduism. One week of relaxation coupled with intense panic of the unknown, and I'm back in Winston-Salem, making sense of everything all over again. I'm not as agitated as I was for the beginning of the fall semester; I've made my choice to remain at Wake, and I'm sticking to that decision. But it doesn't mean I don't get a little nervous at the idea of going back to a fuller than full workload. Will I get exhausted again? Burn out? It's the new year, new me kind of deal, but is it? It's never easy transitioning from a little work here and there to a packed, 19 hour day, 7 days of the week kind of deal, but I'm determined to make it work.
This past weekend, I hung out around the house, became frustrated, watched a few seasons of Bones, made a recipe that I can't wait to put a twist on, and thought long and hard about what this new year will mean in the long run. My plan this year? One resolution a month mixed with some new habits and attitude adjustments -- all will be minimally planned and I'll be spending life in the moment (thanks to resolution #1 - Spontaneity). I'm really excited. This week I'm hoping to catch up with friends before I go back and really start living the life I want for my future. Amazing 2015 here I come!
How was your weekend? What are some of your resolutions this year?
I am grateful for trusting friendships.
I am grateful for love.
I am grateful for a desire to be
I am grateful for hope.
I am grateful for passion and commitment.
I am grateful for living a life I am proud to live.
I am grateful for the sun, the moon, and the stars and how they will always keep me on track.
What are you grateful for?
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||LAZY & FRUSTRATED||
Okay, so the title is a slight exaggeration, but not far from the truth. I feel like the stress that has been building up over the last few weeks -- what am I saying, the last few months -- has caught up with me and reduced me to an exhausted Emily, lying on the couch, and watching Blue Bloods like my life depends on the show. Which it kind of does right now. The lazy, hazy weekend has been extended into the week, into my veins, and into my bones. Hopefully this week I'll get moving, catching up on much needed work, writing some great posts for all of you, and getting ready for my Kula Christmas at the end of the week. I do love the holiday season.
P.S. I made this cornbread over the weekend - twice - it. was. that. good.
P.S.S. If you're traveling home for the holidays over the next week or so, check out my holiday survival guide.
How was your weekend? Eat anything yummy?
I am grateful for - in the words of Joanna Goddard - "my gorgeous best friend who texts every morning, holds my hand in scary elevators, and sneaks wine into movies." Yep, she's a keeper.
I am grateful for beautiful nights in twinkle lit gardens with my beautiful Momma.
I am grateful for tea with a wonderful woman and incredible friend.
I am grateful for having a puppy in the house who reminds me what yoga off the mat looks like.
I am grateful for Netflix. It had to be said.
I am grateful for love, for I am never without it no matter where I go.
What are you grateful for?
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I release the past. I am free to move forward with love in my heart.
From the amazing and wonderful Louise L. Hay.
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Dear A Beautiful Recovery Readers, First of all, thank you for continually checking in, wondering what changes were occurring or if something had happened. I love and send gratitude to each and every one of you.
The truth, though, is much bigger than “I went away for the summer and am returning back to reality and thus blogging”. No. The truth: I have undergone some incredible, life-changing experiences, and I wanted to fully immerse myself in those emotions and opportunities, stocking them up until I couldn’t wait another second to share them with all of my readers.
This blog is going to see an evolution of greatness. When I began this blog, I was healing. I was changing from someone who couldn’t look at herself in the mirror and had a hard time smiling when it was grey and dark outside to someone who has a hard time not smiling (not counting the week long stress fest that was moving back to school) and wants to shake the world awake into greatness. I was struggling over the winter//spring to define my values and my truth. I needed the end of the spring and the bulk of the summer to discover my passions and my purpose (at least at this point in my life). I wrote down weekly in my planner to write a blog post, to explain my absence, but no words were right, and I left behind every draft.
But rather than apologize for that, I know in my heart that this exact moment is the time to revolutionize this blog.
Here’s what happened that catapulted my change:
I moved back home in the middle of May (Wake Forest was done for the year), and I rushed into the notion that in order to succeed I needed money, everything on my “want” list immediately, and a superficial appearance of perfection. I spent weeks (in addition to the months already spent) looking for a job. Eventually, I walked up and down the streets of Downtown, passing out my resume, hoping for a call immediately. I got one: a nicer restaurant on the water downtown hired me the very same day. I trained nervously for one or two days and then was sent into a restaurant experience of negativity and hatred. During that week, I had a family explosion of negativity as well, and so the following week or so began filling with doubt, insecurity, and self-image issues. I felt myself spiraling into bad, old habits, ones I didn’t like or need. And it wasn’t until I was crying for a whole day straight that I came to the realization that I don’t have to live this way.
Wow. It’s true. Don’t live with things that make you miserable!
I did not even know that this was a possibility, but I started thinking more and more about the idea. Making money in a hostile environment does not make me happy. I slept on this for a day or so, and then I stepped into the restaurant and quit. After about two weeks, not even long enough to put on a resume, I quit. And I don’t regret it for a single second. I also don’t regret being hired, either. I learned that I was a person worthy of hire, a desired candidate for a job, but I also learned that my worth was much greater than pleasing people who could only snap back with attitude.
The idea that I could do what I love and be rewarded by the universe was a simple idea and a magnificent reality. It made me evaluate what empowered me, what gave me purpose. I had been working for trade at a local yoga studio, working their front desk in exchange for yoga classes. I already knew that yoga fueled me, as I was/am completing my yoga teacher training. But I was recognizing that my passion for health and nutrition was far more powerful than just reading through blogs online. With that idea in mind, I started looking up the credentials of my favorite blog writers, and lo and behold discovered my future. Amazing right?! Ahhh this is so fun and exhilarating for me to write!
I am currently training at Integrative Nutrition® to become a health coach! What was once a passion of looking up superfoods, talking to friends and family about dietary liberation, and embarking on culinary adventures has morphed into an amazing phase of my life.
I will talk probably incessantly about my adventures as a student at Integrative Nutrition® and being in yoga teacher training, but I know my readers love me, and it doesn’t matter what I write as long as I am being authentic and true.
And wait there’s more! Not only am I becoming a health coach and a certified yoga instructor, but I also started Crescent Moon Naturals, a beauty product line free of harmful toxins, filled with loving and nourishing vegan ingredients, designed to harmonize the mind and body with self-love. You can view my website here. The website is informational and a testament to beauty, but will soon expand to Etsy. Stay tuned!
So there you have it... my changes: A Beauty Revolutionary, a Yoga Instructor, and Health Coach swirling around with the title of Life Long Student! Beautiful, isn’t it? Worth the wait, too?!
With all of these changes, it is natural that A Beautiful Recovery will evolve, too. I am still going to write of my gratitude, my weekly finds, my life, but I am also going to include helpful health and nutrition information, DIYs, yoga, and weekly mantras. It’s a big haul, one that is going to be a slow but incredible shift, and I look forward to all of the places, people, and opportunities it will uncover and journeys it will take us on.
Who’s with me?
With love and endless gratitude, Namaste.